The following post is by Miah Oren as part of the Life-Changing Scriptures for Writers Project.
“But [the Lord] said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. —2 Corinthians 12:9, ESV
For years, I clung to the belief that I needed to be as perfect as possible. I couldn’t tolerate my mistakes because I thought that that would make me unworthy of God’s love. I didn’t understand that grace is freely given precisely because I don’t deserve it.
I have felt called to write for years, ever since I was in middle school. But until a few years ago, I rarely shared my words because I was too focused on writing perfectly. If I made a mistake and someone pointed it out, I was ashamed. So to avoid shame, I hid my thoughts and feelings.
For me, writing is about remembering what God has done for me and reminding myself that God is able to work through anything, including my weaknesses. Without my weaknesses, I think that I can and should do everything on my own strength.
When I remember that I am fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14), I am reminded that God has made all of me – including what I often see as weaknesses. When I can let go of my standards of perfectionism and lean into who God has made me to be, I can embrace my creative potential and share my work and myself with others.
I would love to take all the credit for every good thing that happens. But when I am able to own my weaknesses and share how God has through me both in spite of and because of them, God get the credit and not me.
I’m human. I make mistakes. And God still loves me.
God’s grace is sufficient for every mistake. When I admit my weakness, God has permission to work through me. I don’t have to try to do everything all on my own. God is there, waiting for me to call upon him in my weakness so that I and others see that he is the one who is working beautiful things. It’s God’s power to do good, and not my power.
In my writing, I am working through my weaknesses of anger, perfectionism, and people-pleasing. Writing is part of recognizing my weaknesses and giving credit to God. Through God’s grace, He works in me to redeem my failures and weaknesses into righteousness. For me, that is success.
Lord, help me to focus on your grace instead of clinging to fear and anxiety. Thank you for redeeming my weaknesses and making me the way I am. ”
Miah is the author of The Reluctant Missionary (March 2016), and she writes about learning to let go of perfectionism and embracing God’s plan for her life. She lives in Dallas where she dreams of someday having another cat. Her website is http://www.miahoren.com.
Want to contribute? Submit your piece here.